I have come to appreciate the remembering part of past blessings that confirm to me that my Heavenly Father is mindful of me. I have been through some tough things but I know I couldn't have done them without help, His help, I'm just not that strong on my own!
Scott's father passed away last September, our oldest son had a very serious problem in November which he is still working through (I will protect his privacy by not sharing the details), but believe me when I say it was the hardest thing to date that we have dealt with. We thought things were finally going to be wonderful with a wedding on the way and then our world crashed around us again when the wedding needed to be postponed. It was out of our control. Many tears were shed and we were tested, as was Josh and his new bride to be. We have been working through all this and finally the wedding has been rescheduled. It is one the 24th of September.
As we have been through all this I have turned to my Saviour, the scriptures, and the temple more fully. I have had reassurances from the Holy Ghost that things wouldn't be as bad as expected, that things were happening for a reason (someones patriarchal blessing was being fulfilled) and that no experience we endure will be wasted if we learn and grow from it. One scripture that came to me repeatedly was Mosiah 23:21-22
"Nevertheless the Lord seeth fit to chasten his people; yea, he trieth their patience and their faith. Nevertheless-whosoever putteth his trust in him the same shall be lifted up at the last day. Yea, thus it was with this people."
I want to be counted as HIS people.
Enduring to the end, has been given new meaning. Unconditional love, new meaning. Not judging others, new meaning. Patience, new meaning. The Atonement, new meaning. Family, new meaning. Trusting in the Lord, new and stronger meaning. Never giving up and fighting for the right, new meaning. We are not powerless.
I appreciate friends and especially family for their patience and understanding. For the ones who didn't ask questions but said let me know when the wedding is rescheduled so I can help.
We will keep the faith because it IS stronger now. I'm not sure I will ever be grateful for the trials but I will be grateful for the lessons and the tender mercies received during them. I have heard the Saviors voice through the promptings of the Holy Ghost and I can never deny that the Savior is the literal Son of God. A quote I love from Pres. Hinckley comes to mind.
"Every Latter Day Saint has the responsibility to know for himself or herself with a certainty beyond doubt that Jesus is the resurrected, living son of the living God."
I know it, now!
4 comments:
You have handled your burdens beautifully. In the scriptures it talks about being an elect lady. You most certainly are that. Your family is lucky to have you as a strength and also as someone to look to as an example of charity, love, and faith. We are excited for the upcoming wedding. It is truly going to be a blessed event.
I just want to say a giant AMEN to that! I think I understand every word and feeling of your post, even though I am sure our trials are very different. It does make the sweet times even sweeter. Enjoy your son's special day!
I'm so sorry you've had a rough year. It sounds like you're doing it the best it can be done. :)
Nicely said! I'm sorry about the rough year. At least the 24th is around the corner and that will be such a happy day!
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